Well it has been awhile since I have been in here once again. I have to admit it is due to my dating and bar hoping habits that have seemed to have emerged from the ash of the past. Lol I blame Ang lol ... Shhhhh don't tell her lol. Anyway I went and put my self out there I took that huge step that all single people do at some point in there single life. I tried the bars I was not doing to bad but over all was not really closing the deal. So I had to grow up put on my big girl panties on and I joined Match.com. Yes it is true..
I am not going to lye it has had it's good points but I am about to take my ass of that site. Since I have lost weight I don't know if I look hotter, or if it is all attitude but I have been going boy crazy.
*HOLD PLEASE* So I was looking back over my last entry and before I get into this I have to Clarify something about my last post, I was saying I went to Cal. And thought I was going to die not sure what happened but what I was trying to says is a couple of years ago we went on vacation to Vegas and I was dying back aches breathing hard, heart attack status all that, so when I went to Cal. I was so glad it was not like that I did awesome. I was out walking the kids, the brother and the parents so I was excited about that. So anyway back to the ready scheduled blog in progress..
So anyway back to what I was saying last time I blogged I mentioned a few playing in the game of Chan's life. Last time I was feeling pretty good about my self and how I was being this awesome player.. I am here to say I suck at this game. So let's start with Johnny formally know is hottie on the line is now known as African Dushbag. I was talking to dick head for about a week trying to put all my "to good to be true" fears aside ( and those of you who have or are a bigger girl know what I mean by that it something that comes with years of heart ache and rejection from the opposite sex because you ain't skinny ass fantasy bitch that every guy at some points thinks they will either get or that will want them. Lmao oh ok) and all my what is his end game right things to say to make me start believing him any way I started to fall for it against my better judgement. Long and short of it he told me he was a white guy sent me pictures he was freaking hot hello, and then told me he was working out of the state and he would be back in 3 weeks I believed it then things started to not add up then, finally the shit hit the fan, he started telling me the Internet sucked and he needed a Ipad and then the mother f'er asked me to send him one kiss my what, I maybe fat but I am not stupid, I told him to kiss it, then he drugged me back in but I did so without believing a word he said, and I finally ended up calling he was African, and not Italian, and he was Black not White... So this player got played.. It hurt a little not gonna lie. But lesson learned. Hello remember the girls boys are dumb and they are liars don't fall for there crap..
Then there was my great player moment where I was gonna prove I could be a player, (this was before I found out that dick head was full of shit) but I was feeling like I was not ready to settle so I called my bootie call guy Dan and I went to meet him. I was pretty proud of my self I had Johnny, Dan and a nice guy I was dating them all and getting what I want.. I went to Dans house we had sex and it was awesome I was like oh yeah... I can do this.. Until... Dan starts talking to me and wanting to get to know me and kinda acting like he might want us to be more even making comments that I want is to use him.. I got up and I was out of there.. Let me tell you, you can not run from that kind of stuff.. I felt like a dirt bag... Hello if a guy did that to me I would feel like shit.. I cried almost all the way home feeling terrible with my self.. Called my friend Danny and dumbed on him... What a mess.. I aint no Diva !
Then there is Jeff sweet Jeff, he is a nice guy.. I hate to say but that is about all I am attracted to. Except he has bad habit of disappearing for a week or two at a time and I don't hear from him.. I don't know what to do about him I really don't He has a lot going on, I know I like talking to him and hanging out with him.. So he is still there I just not sure what to do about that...
Then there is my new little friend.. Wow what to say about Joe, I meet him at the Tim McGraw concert, I was pretty drunk, okok then.. Then Ang was yelling no Chan no, he was pulling on me and said he just take my number so I did , he said now call me so I have your number so I did.. Well he has not gone away. he texts me almost everyday.. I admit I suck because I play with him.. Hello he has a girlfriend and all he wants is to meet up and have sex... Hello I mean I know I am hot but when did I become such a diva in demand..lol...
I don't know.. HELP.. I am a mess. I have a lot of guys but nothing real.. So lets sum it up, fat girls are fun to talk to, play with, have sex with, and we look like a easy mark to scam.. AWESOME, sound fun.. ok I am not going to lie some of it really is fun.. (wink wink ) . But to move past all that I am a mess no clue.. OH well I guess I just ride it out and enjoy what I got going on right.. But I need to go back and reread the rules.. Boys are poison..
But here is some food for thought I am down only 100 lbs I have at least another 100 to go wow what is to come it should be interesting.. Stay tooned for the ever so entertaining dating habit of this PHAT girl...lol TTFN Chan
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Saturday, July 30, 2011
DOIN IT AGAIN !!
Hello my friends,
It has been awhile since I have been on here. Life has been a little up and down lately and honest I have just not been in the mood. lol But hey it is my blog and I have that option.... lol So lets see to catch you up, I have been on maintenance for the last 60 or 65 days or so. I started it on May 16th I was at 342.4 lbs. I stayed on maintenance until July 25th when I started my 3rd round of injection at the weight of 333.8 lbs and now I am on day 6 and I weighed in today at 322 lbs bringing me to 110lbs since my largest weight and 81lbs since I started HCG in Feb. I am pretty proud of myself.. If I say so myself I am off to a good start with this 3rd round. I think it was good to go off the shots for a few months to reboot, this time around is more like round 1 I am losing pretty steady and not hungry and my motivation is in place also.
Now to keep it real like I like to do, I have other working motivations also No 1 is my my grandma. Recently my grandma passed away. The last real conversation I had with her was about my weight loss. I went to visit my grandma about 3 weeks before she passed away. My parents called and they said she was not doing to well and asked if my brother would come out and check on her because he uset to be a EMT, so we went to RushValley and I knew then that was the beginning of the end. I knew that day she was saying goodbye, she looked at me and said promise you will keep going, you look so good. I said I am grandma I am not giving up. She told me how good I look and she loves me and to keep going I said over and over I will. I had an over whelming feeling it was coming. I know she was 100 years old but she was my rock and my foundation. My hero, I looked up to her for everything. The next time and the last time I seen my grandma she was in the hospital a week latter, and not doing well I told her I love her and I would see her soon. She was pretty bad off not talking much in and out of sleep I was there when they gave her a blessing. I did not think she would make it home from the hospital but she did. but sadly due to my own stubbornness I did not see my grandma alive again. I keep putting off going to visit her because even through I keep thinking you need to go see her. I would not allow myself to go because I knew if I did it would just be to say goodbye and I was not ready. But she did pass soon after. Leaving me with the last conversation I had with my grandma is me promising I will not give up. And I will not give up. I am doing this for me but now I am also doing it for my grandma because it was my last promise I made her and I know she is looking over me and will help me if she can. And that brings me comfort, and motivation. I will not let her down. I have been doing this for my self but if there is anyone worth doing it for it is her. I love you grandma and miss you !!!
ok then now that I brought everyone down, and bummed myself out, lets move on to my funner motivation...
Boys , boys, boys, boys, boys and oh yeah boys... lol So lately I have admittedly felt like a bit of a player. Which is exciting and new for me. I have several guys that I have been trying to connect with. I thought I had my shit together and I was pretty proud of myself. I had 1 boy that I call and text he is just some eye candy that is fun to play with, he is only 21 but he is beautiful, but lets face it to young so he is just a boy toy fun to play with... then there is my booty call boy, now that is fun, we are both on the same page we meet have sex, and text each other from time to time and it is what it is, I don't want a boyfriend he don't want a girlfriend it works. Then I meet a guy that was and is true dating material, but I feel like a superficial bitch because although he is a nice guy, I think could I do better and beside he does not pay enough attention to me. Please don't start to hate me this is all new to me, I am just rolling with it. I am also turning into a bit of a promiscuous girl , I have had 2 , one night stands in the last 3 months. I am here to say that is so not me, What the hell am I thinking. Now I have a hottee and he asks me to be his girlfriend.. what the hell... But it give me motivation to keep going and lose this weight for sure.
I am loving my possibilities and it is crazy that I lost a 100lbs and my life just turns upside down.. I am loving it. It is exciting.
Plus about a week ago I went to California with my family for a week, we went to LegoLand, SeaWorldomg. I just did not think I was going to make it. My back was killing me I seriously thought at that point that I was bound to have a heart attack at any moment. I knew then I needed to do something. So for me to be able to say I am doing it I am so excited...
So I think that about sums it up for me now. I lost 110 lbs as of today, I have become a bit of a player and not sure yet if I am ok with that I am having a good time I have had several guys coming around now, I have a hottie on the line and it might be more time will tell, but lets face it I have only known the guy a week lol sad really ... ok so I am going to keep going for me and my grandma and boys that maybe waiting to get to know me. hehehe (jk) Anyway I am out for now !!! TTFN Chan
It has been awhile since I have been on here. Life has been a little up and down lately and honest I have just not been in the mood. lol But hey it is my blog and I have that option.... lol So lets see to catch you up, I have been on maintenance for the last 60 or 65 days or so. I started it on May 16th I was at 342.4 lbs. I stayed on maintenance until July 25th when I started my 3rd round of injection at the weight of 333.8 lbs and now I am on day 6 and I weighed in today at 322 lbs bringing me to 110lbs since my largest weight and 81lbs since I started HCG in Feb. I am pretty proud of myself.. If I say so myself I am off to a good start with this 3rd round. I think it was good to go off the shots for a few months to reboot, this time around is more like round 1 I am losing pretty steady and not hungry and my motivation is in place also.
Now to keep it real like I like to do, I have other working motivations also No 1 is my my grandma. Recently my grandma passed away. The last real conversation I had with her was about my weight loss. I went to visit my grandma about 3 weeks before she passed away. My parents called and they said she was not doing to well and asked if my brother would come out and check on her because he uset to be a EMT, so we went to RushValley and I knew then that was the beginning of the end. I knew that day she was saying goodbye, she looked at me and said promise you will keep going, you look so good. I said I am grandma I am not giving up. She told me how good I look and she loves me and to keep going I said over and over I will. I had an over whelming feeling it was coming. I know she was 100 years old but she was my rock and my foundation. My hero, I looked up to her for everything. The next time and the last time I seen my grandma she was in the hospital a week latter, and not doing well I told her I love her and I would see her soon. She was pretty bad off not talking much in and out of sleep I was there when they gave her a blessing. I did not think she would make it home from the hospital but she did. but sadly due to my own stubbornness I did not see my grandma alive again. I keep putting off going to visit her because even through I keep thinking you need to go see her. I would not allow myself to go because I knew if I did it would just be to say goodbye and I was not ready. But she did pass soon after. Leaving me with the last conversation I had with my grandma is me promising I will not give up. And I will not give up. I am doing this for me but now I am also doing it for my grandma because it was my last promise I made her and I know she is looking over me and will help me if she can. And that brings me comfort, and motivation. I will not let her down. I have been doing this for my self but if there is anyone worth doing it for it is her. I love you grandma and miss you !!!
ok then now that I brought everyone down, and bummed myself out, lets move on to my funner motivation...
Boys , boys, boys, boys, boys and oh yeah boys... lol So lately I have admittedly felt like a bit of a player. Which is exciting and new for me. I have several guys that I have been trying to connect with. I thought I had my shit together and I was pretty proud of myself. I had 1 boy that I call and text he is just some eye candy that is fun to play with, he is only 21 but he is beautiful, but lets face it to young so he is just a boy toy fun to play with... then there is my booty call boy, now that is fun, we are both on the same page we meet have sex, and text each other from time to time and it is what it is, I don't want a boyfriend he don't want a girlfriend it works. Then I meet a guy that was and is true dating material, but I feel like a superficial bitch because although he is a nice guy, I think could I do better and beside he does not pay enough attention to me. Please don't start to hate me this is all new to me, I am just rolling with it. I am also turning into a bit of a promiscuous girl , I have had 2 , one night stands in the last 3 months. I am here to say that is so not me, What the hell am I thinking. Now I have a hottee and he asks me to be his girlfriend.. what the hell... But it give me motivation to keep going and lose this weight for sure.
I am loving my possibilities and it is crazy that I lost a 100lbs and my life just turns upside down.. I am loving it. It is exciting.
Plus about a week ago I went to California with my family for a week, we went to LegoLand, SeaWorldomg. I just did not think I was going to make it. My back was killing me I seriously thought at that point that I was bound to have a heart attack at any moment. I knew then I needed to do something. So for me to be able to say I am doing it I am so excited...
So I think that about sums it up for me now. I lost 110 lbs as of today, I have become a bit of a player and not sure yet if I am ok with that I am having a good time I have had several guys coming around now, I have a hottie on the line and it might be more time will tell, but lets face it I have only known the guy a week lol sad really ... ok so I am going to keep going for me and my grandma and boys that maybe waiting to get to know me. hehehe (jk) Anyway I am out for now !!! TTFN Chan
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
What the Hell !
Hello Me Again,
So here is the thing, as the L-B's go down I seem to be attracting a little attention from the opposite sex. Now weather is from my award winning personality or my new sexy hair do, this I do not know, but what I am telling you shit is getting deep up in here. lol Tonight I was texting 4 boys at the same time. Although admittedly exciting. What the hell is that about right !
I just have to laugh because out of the 4 boys I am still up in the air with no where to go. Out of these 4 boys, not sure any of them is going to work out, or that I even want them to because here is the thing. 1 is married,( he does not know I know that but I do, he he he), 1 is way way to young ( but dam cute), 1 only wants sex ( and the jury is still out on that offer -lol) and the other god only know what his deal is.
But here is the saddest part of all this, the one I like the least is the one that wants sex and the one I like the most is the one I should be messing with the least, (ok not the very least because the least is the married boy. But no worries nothing is happening there, even a big girl has to draw a line some where right lol ) No in all honestly it makes me laugh. Because I don't know what the heck is happening around here....
This much I will say I have never been one to have a case of low self esteem - other then like everyone women in American when I am having a pity party or something. But for the most part I think I am the same person. Maybe a little more active but pretty much me. I guess it just goes to show what dropping a few
L-B'S. can do for a girl though. Right down to a 1 night stand in Wendover ( not with any of the 4 boys listed above mind you- and not that I am overly proud of myself on that one but it is what it is right). ( And for those of you thinking TMI sorry you signed up to read this crap and the title is single and losin it after all... lol )
Hey I should be jumping with joy right I am living the player life extraordinaire. lol
But through all the BS I do have to say this, it is nice to be noticed for a change. Told your pretty and beautiful and all that stuff, even if he is just trying to get in your pants. I can live with that.
But please know this, that I tell this story to you my friends with a aire of caution please refer back to "Rules of the Fat Girl " # 3. Boys can be jerks! I say this because why does it take me losing 100lbs to get a guy to take a second look. I am still the same girl on the inside just not as thick on the out side. What the hell !! Any way not sure I had a huge point to this blog entry tonight just had some thoughts rolling around in my head I couldn't sleep and thought why not share !! Lucky you!!
So hey everyone there you have it. If I am this crazy at 328.8lbs watch out boys here I come !! lol No body wants to know what 299 lbs will bring...... but I will let you know you can count on it TMI and all ! Don't stress to much Iwill try and keep it rated PG-13. I promise!
TTFN Chan
So here is the thing, as the L-B's go down I seem to be attracting a little attention from the opposite sex. Now weather is from my award winning personality or my new sexy hair do, this I do not know, but what I am telling you shit is getting deep up in here. lol Tonight I was texting 4 boys at the same time. Although admittedly exciting. What the hell is that about right !
I just have to laugh because out of the 4 boys I am still up in the air with no where to go. Out of these 4 boys, not sure any of them is going to work out, or that I even want them to because here is the thing. 1 is married,( he does not know I know that but I do, he he he), 1 is way way to young ( but dam cute), 1 only wants sex ( and the jury is still out on that offer -lol) and the other god only know what his deal is.
But here is the saddest part of all this, the one I like the least is the one that wants sex and the one I like the most is the one I should be messing with the least, (ok not the very least because the least is the married boy. But no worries nothing is happening there, even a big girl has to draw a line some where right lol ) No in all honestly it makes me laugh. Because I don't know what the heck is happening around here....
This much I will say I have never been one to have a case of low self esteem - other then like everyone women in American when I am having a pity party or something. But for the most part I think I am the same person. Maybe a little more active but pretty much me. I guess it just goes to show what dropping a few
L-B'S. can do for a girl though. Right down to a 1 night stand in Wendover ( not with any of the 4 boys listed above mind you- and not that I am overly proud of myself on that one but it is what it is right). ( And for those of you thinking TMI sorry you signed up to read this crap and the title is single and losin it after all... lol )
Hey I should be jumping with joy right I am living the player life extraordinaire. lol
But through all the BS I do have to say this, it is nice to be noticed for a change. Told your pretty and beautiful and all that stuff, even if he is just trying to get in your pants. I can live with that.
But please know this, that I tell this story to you my friends with a aire of caution please refer back to "Rules of the Fat Girl " # 3. Boys can be jerks! I say this because why does it take me losing 100lbs to get a guy to take a second look. I am still the same girl on the inside just not as thick on the out side. What the hell !! Any way not sure I had a huge point to this blog entry tonight just had some thoughts rolling around in my head I couldn't sleep and thought why not share !! Lucky you!!
So hey everyone there you have it. If I am this crazy at 328.8lbs watch out boys here I come !! lol No body wants to know what 299 lbs will bring...... but I will let you know you can count on it TMI and all ! Don't stress to much Iwill try and keep it rated PG-13. I promise!
TTFN Chan
DOWN DOWN DOWN !!
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On June 14th I hit 331.8 lbs that puts me over the hump of 100lbs, from my highest weight Oct 2010 and at 71.2 lbs since starting HCG in Feb 2011. I am feel pretty dang good about that ! As of today I am at 328.8 which is 74.2 lbs since Feb and 103.2lbs since my largest weight !!!! WOW !!
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
SOME RULES FOR A FAT GIRL TO LIVE BY !
So I have come up with just a few rules for a fat girl to live by , or PHAT if you prefer. Now these rules are not all inclusive, they can change at any time or be added on or subtracted from.. they are just a general rule of thumb.
1. Don't stand next to a short or smaller person for to long it makes you feel even larger.
2. Always, always check the weight limit on a ride at a theme park before getting on the ride to avoid a very embracing scene latter when they ask you to get off the ride for being over the weight limit... (yes saddly there is a story there but it is for another time)
3. Boys can be jerks !
4. When someone says you have such a pretty face, or if you dropped a few pounds you would be such a pretty girl, just remember they meant that as a compliment.
5. If a boy tells you he thinks your cute, or funny, or adorable, or even that he loves your smile, DO NOT assume he likes you, please refer back to rule #3.
6. Before you sit on chair you don't normally sit in or on, check it for the sturdy factor before sitting down, and slowly put your weight on it to insure it will hold, then sit still if your still in doubt, this too could turn into a very sad situation for you and the chair if you don't take the time to check it out.
7. Please do not punch or slap the shit out of a skinny girl who keep insisting she is fat.
8. Almost always try and have a good sense of humor about being fat. Trust me is much better to laugh with someone then to be laughed at.
9. Wear baggy clothes be sure to point it out to others how baggy those clothes are because if your clothes are baggy surely you must be losing weight, the second part of this is it makes you think you look smaller if your clothes are to big. No one will ever catch on to your real size..
10. As a rule of thumb don't buy sports cars the smaller the car the bigger you feel and look.
11. Be happy for hell sakes, love your self, it is hard enough for a big girl to get a boyfriend don't make it even harder by being the grump or having a bad personality. That is a fat girls trade mark don;t you know when a guy ask what is she like (ie what does she look like) and your a fat girl they will always say well she has a good personality don't take that away from your self.. Use what you got girl. Honestly!
12. Have some self esteem for hell sakes there are worse thing than being fat, you could be ugly too.
13. I would rather be fat and happy then skinny and miserable.
Well I think that is a good dent in the rules for today I may address this further in future blog updates.. I am just sayin follow some rules it will make your life a little easier...... TTFN Chan
1. Don't stand next to a short or smaller person for to long it makes you feel even larger.
2. Always, always check the weight limit on a ride at a theme park before getting on the ride to avoid a very embracing scene latter when they ask you to get off the ride for being over the weight limit... (yes saddly there is a story there but it is for another time)
3. Boys can be jerks !
4. When someone says you have such a pretty face, or if you dropped a few pounds you would be such a pretty girl, just remember they meant that as a compliment.
5. If a boy tells you he thinks your cute, or funny, or adorable, or even that he loves your smile, DO NOT assume he likes you, please refer back to rule #3.
6. Before you sit on chair you don't normally sit in or on, check it for the sturdy factor before sitting down, and slowly put your weight on it to insure it will hold, then sit still if your still in doubt, this too could turn into a very sad situation for you and the chair if you don't take the time to check it out.
7. Please do not punch or slap the shit out of a skinny girl who keep insisting she is fat.
8. Almost always try and have a good sense of humor about being fat. Trust me is much better to laugh with someone then to be laughed at.
9. Wear baggy clothes be sure to point it out to others how baggy those clothes are because if your clothes are baggy surely you must be losing weight, the second part of this is it makes you think you look smaller if your clothes are to big. No one will ever catch on to your real size..
10. As a rule of thumb don't buy sports cars the smaller the car the bigger you feel and look.
11. Be happy for hell sakes, love your self, it is hard enough for a big girl to get a boyfriend don't make it even harder by being the grump or having a bad personality. That is a fat girls trade mark don;t you know when a guy ask what is she like (ie what does she look like) and your a fat girl they will always say well she has a good personality don't take that away from your self.. Use what you got girl. Honestly!
12. Have some self esteem for hell sakes there are worse thing than being fat, you could be ugly too.
13. I would rather be fat and happy then skinny and miserable.
Well I think that is a good dent in the rules for today I may address this further in future blog updates.. I am just sayin follow some rules it will make your life a little easier...... TTFN Chan
Friday, May 27, 2011
LIFE AFTER VEGAS !
Hello my name is Chantel and I am diet cheater, I have been back on the wagon for 2 days now!
I am sure you can see it has been awhile since I last blogged. It is due to my deep deep deep deep deep oh yeah deep shame and remorse.. I have sucked at this weight loss gig for awhile now. I am a professional cheater. I get down I go up, I get down I go back up.. On average my weight loss is stalled I have lost and gain the same 6-7 lbs for over a month now.. I am done with it. I suck !
Now please don't get me wrong, I am not losing my will to diet, I still want to loss this weight. I really really do. I am just having a hard time balancing my weekends and my weight loss. I do pretty good all week then comes the stupid weekend. I screw it up. Every Freakin time. I am so mad at my self right now. I am now as of today at 338.8lb which does not sound to bad except that 1 week ago tomorrow I was at 336.6 lbs so I am up from a week ago still. Disappointed is a understatement.
Recently me and my weight loss buddies have been going through a bumpy patch. Ang want to go out drinking every weekend don't get me wrong I am all over that.. I am having a blast. I just have a bad habit of snacking while drunk and the day after wanting to eat everything in sight. While Ang is doing just great.. She is within 32 lbs of her goal weight. I am so proud of her. She is rockin it!
Carri is a whole other story! Which is hers to share on this sight when she is ready to do so.
She and I just went to Vegas this last week I worked really hard to stay on diet or at least a version of a diet. All and all I can't be to mad, I am back down .2 compared to where I could of been after a few days in The Las Vegas.
But I am here to say there is life after Vegas, I am going to get back in gear. I need to just stay with this. I have stopped my HCG injection for now. I am going to stay off them until August to try and let my body reboot but I am going to be trying to maintain at least where I am , and loss what I can also in the mean time. I just have to get my life back on track.. This weight loss means something to me. I am going to do this. I am going to beat this beast that controls me and has for so many years.
My good friend Aubrey H, ( sorry I am about to be a plagiarizer - Aubs' sorry) she said something the other day, I swear it needs to be my new motto.
I need to eat to live not live to eat ! That about sums it up people right there call it a night.... lol NO honestly that is awesome advise and I think about it alot.... way to go Aub you are more then a pretty face...lol (love ya- just don't sue me when I make a million dollars selling the concept- when I loss all my weight and do single and losin it semiars all over the world... lol).
So here we go starting a weekend and a holiday weekend at that wish me luck. I am going to eat to live not live to eat (except for BBQ Sunday -sorry see what I mean I suck I just freakin love food ok -lol) NO honestly there is life after Vegas and I am going to live it. And get back on track !! I will try and write more I think it helps to vent and get my sins in the open..
So there you have it I am a diet cheater and I am not proud of it.. TTFN Chan
I am sure you can see it has been awhile since I last blogged. It is due to my deep deep deep deep deep oh yeah deep shame and remorse.. I have sucked at this weight loss gig for awhile now. I am a professional cheater. I get down I go up, I get down I go back up.. On average my weight loss is stalled I have lost and gain the same 6-7 lbs for over a month now.. I am done with it. I suck !
Now please don't get me wrong, I am not losing my will to diet, I still want to loss this weight. I really really do. I am just having a hard time balancing my weekends and my weight loss. I do pretty good all week then comes the stupid weekend. I screw it up. Every Freakin time. I am so mad at my self right now. I am now as of today at 338.8lb which does not sound to bad except that 1 week ago tomorrow I was at 336.6 lbs so I am up from a week ago still. Disappointed is a understatement.
Recently me and my weight loss buddies have been going through a bumpy patch. Ang want to go out drinking every weekend don't get me wrong I am all over that.. I am having a blast. I just have a bad habit of snacking while drunk and the day after wanting to eat everything in sight. While Ang is doing just great.. She is within 32 lbs of her goal weight. I am so proud of her. She is rockin it!
Carri is a whole other story! Which is hers to share on this sight when she is ready to do so.
She and I just went to Vegas this last week I worked really hard to stay on diet or at least a version of a diet. All and all I can't be to mad, I am back down .2 compared to where I could of been after a few days in The Las Vegas.
But I am here to say there is life after Vegas, I am going to get back in gear. I need to just stay with this. I have stopped my HCG injection for now. I am going to stay off them until August to try and let my body reboot but I am going to be trying to maintain at least where I am , and loss what I can also in the mean time. I just have to get my life back on track.. This weight loss means something to me. I am going to do this. I am going to beat this beast that controls me and has for so many years.
My good friend Aubrey H, ( sorry I am about to be a plagiarizer - Aubs' sorry) she said something the other day, I swear it needs to be my new motto.
I need to eat to live not live to eat ! That about sums it up people right there call it a night.... lol NO honestly that is awesome advise and I think about it alot.... way to go Aub you are more then a pretty face...lol (love ya- just don't sue me when I make a million dollars selling the concept- when I loss all my weight and do single and losin it semiars all over the world... lol).
So here we go starting a weekend and a holiday weekend at that wish me luck. I am going to eat to live not live to eat (except for BBQ Sunday -sorry see what I mean I suck I just freakin love food ok -lol) NO honestly there is life after Vegas and I am going to live it. And get back on track !! I will try and write more I think it helps to vent and get my sins in the open..
So there you have it I am a diet cheater and I am not proud of it.. TTFN Chan
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
PICTURES OF ME !!!
CAN YOU TELL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY FACE I WAS GOING THROUGH MY PHONE APPARENTLY I LIKE TO TAKE PICTURES OF MYSELF LOL
NOV 22 2010
FEB 05 2011 
APRIL 30 2011
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