CRANKED OUT !

We all have things in our life that case stress and upset us. Sometimes we keep it to ourselves other times we simply or not so simply unfairly take it our on the ones closest to us or in my case occasionally take it out on customers on the other end of the phone and screw up our audits. Today is one of those days for me.

I took 2 freaking sleeping pills last night I got sleep around midnight 30 an I was out problem is I am so tired I did not want to wake up so now I have a headache and I am kinda cranky. Everything is on my nerves. Lol funny thing is I am into this diet 31 days now and I have had 1 emotional breakdown several headaches a few heart aches but honestly I have not been cranked out. Well people no one is perfect today is that day for me.

Like I said , I am tired I have headache I am frustrated with people stressed and worried about my nephew with that stupid hearing tomorrow, money sucks I am up to neck in bills blah blah blah .... We all have problem right an no one wants to read about my issues I am sure. You know the funny thing is Angela and Carri both were like stay the hell away from Chan while she is on this diet she is going to be a beast. But give me some credit girls I have not been to bad I don't think but today wow I need to snap our of it.

I just have to say something positive in the middle of all my bitching I love the people I work with!!! Kaylyn says what can we do to make it better . Coach comes to see how I am doing with the hearing and does this awesome leg kick for me thanks for the laugh coach. Then Aub H can always make me laugh her story about her car is sad but she just has the best outlook they all just make me laugh. Funny who would of thought work could be such good medicine. Lol now if the dam phone would just quit ringing what the hell do people think this a call center or something !

Well I will try to get uncranked, I am going to talk to coach about time off this stupid phone to use my free gym time, turn off my cell phone and just try to move to my happy place. I am really I have plenty to be happy about I am down 35.2lbs/47.2lbs since Dec. I have a job with good people and they are good friends to me, I have good friends and family out side of work. I am lucky to have a great support system, a awesome drug dealer (lol Aub s- for my HCG people/ don't be planning your jail visits with Aubs' yet lol ) love ya Aubs' lol. Ok see I already feel better blogging can be therapeutic or maybe it is just the bitching, it is like they say,if a women can' t bitch she would explode.  Maybe it is true I just needed to release some steam to feel better.   Ok time to play work phone is ringing. TTFN Chan