I have come a long ways so far, humor me for a moment while I run down my number for you. So here they are :
Oct 2009 weight 432lbs (highest weight I ever got) down 88 lbs.
Decided Dec 2010 to go on HCG (did not have the money so just started trying without shots so I bought a scale ) Dec 2010 weight 412lbs down 66lbs .
Started round 1 HCG 1st injection Jan 31st weight 403lbs down 59lbs.
Started maintenance from round 1 March 12th 2011 weight 364.6lbs down 38.4 lbs.
End maintenance from round 1 March; 31st 2011 weight 353.4lbs down 49.6lbs.
Started load 3 days ended 358lbs
Started round 2 April 4 2011 weight 358 lbs down 45lbs
Failed at round 2 redid load starting back up April 18th down 53.6 lbs
Restarted round 2 weight 349.6 lbs down 53.6
Day 6 restarted round 2 weight 344lbs down 59lbs WOW !
total since start of Round 1 to now down 14lbs in 19 days with 4 days of reload in between so 15 days of work not to bad !!
Wow that was a lot of number and I am sure not much fun to read through but that is me always keeping track of numbers. lol oh well. Maybe somebody wants the numbers.
Yesterday I was so proud of myself I feel my will to do this staying strong. I went to dinner with my niece, my brother and Carri. We went to MIMI CAFE there was so much stuff I wanted but I stayed strong. Let me just tell you what I said no to..... Rolls- sour dough, banana bread, , then Miranda had corn chowder , I just keep saying in my head 1 bite would not be to bad, then I would think no Chantel your so close to 60lbs don't screw it up for 1 stupid bite , so I swatted the offer to the ground remember that is important , food is our drug just say no !!! Then Keith got pasta which strangely enough not such a big deal I was ok with that. But the hits just keep coming then Carri meal comes yum mashed potatoes I have not had potatoes in I can't tell you how long. They looked so creamy and yummy it was almost painful. Then Miranda meal asparagus ravioli I thought that looks good and it is a veggie pasta, but again I just said no. But then as if all of this was not enough the hits just keep coming: desert had to happen. Keith got a chocolate covered brownie, I kinda wanted a bite but I was doing pretty ok although I am a girl I don't have the stereotypical girl problem with chocolate I am good to take a pass on that. But Miranda child of my own making and heart, got Apple crisp! What the helicopter is she thinking lol I freakin love that shit !!! OMG I just keep thinking I just want a bite. Wow dinner was hard last night. That is not to say I did not have a good dinner because mine was delissssse I had asparagus small side of baby greens with balsamic vinaigrette and a delicious steak. I just could not wait to get out there. lol But at the end of the night I was so proud of myself as hard as it was I did not eat a single bite of food that was not on diet. Now the trick is making it through Sunday.
I am having a internal argument with myself about it. I can be good and stay on diet or 1 day will not hurt how much would I gain anyway 2 3 4 5lbs I just know that I would be kicking myself in the ass on Monday morning when I step on that scale. Well wish me luck. I will let you know how it goes. To all you skinny bitches out there happy eating !!! But think of me struggling over if I should eat a egg or not.. lol Alright I am out !!! Peace . TTFN Chan :<)
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